Breakdown

I had a little breakdown yesterday.
Things just can't go according to planned.
I get so frustrated especially when I tried so hard to get things back on-track but screwed by somebody who think she is insisting the right thing.
I agree with my housemates when they tried to comfort me yesterday.
There are some weird situations where, someone in your group suggest some rubbish ideas but he is smart enough to make everyone thinks that he is correct and all the members will be incantated and doing the project in the way he suggests.
But, at certain point, someone will realize that this way might not be the best way yet no one dare to raise the opposition and the black magic continues.

Probably there are other reasons that lead me to this breakdown.
I pushed myself really hard recently.
I did quite well in my other modules, it seems like it is once in a while chance that I probably could get really good grades.
And this is extremely important to me as I am seeking ways to improve my CAP.
So I can't let myself fall, it just cost me too much to get one bad grade in my report card and it will ruin all the efforts I put in for the whole semester.
I have been forcing myself to go forward, and forward and forward.
Sometimes, when I revised what has happened, I feel surprise that how can I force myself this much.
When I walk into corner, dig a tunnel and crawl.
The stress is what I have to pay if I want to be one of the top.
But, this dream has never came true.
Reality has no joke, there are smart people out there waiting to knock you down.

Life continues and pressure soars.
How far I can push myself to?
I keep walking and thinking.