Two roads diverged in a yellow wood

YEAR 3.

How would you explain or define year 3?
For me, study will not be the only thing that you do but it probably the most thing you do everyday in your life.

My friends, who are in Malaysia, who are graduating soon, are working their ass off on their FYP.
Lucky me, i would not have to worry about that until next semester.

Not too far away but at least I still have one semester to slack.

Oh, did I just use the word "slack", I shouldn't do that, year 3 is stretched, not slack.

So, what after FYP? Work? or grad trip?

Today, i just had dinner with one of my friends.

She is a very interesting person, she is so mature that sometimes I wonder how can she have this kind of thinking when she is only 20.

2 years younger than me, but there is no gap when we have conversation.
I don't know is either I know her too well or she is that kind of person who can convince me to agree with her.

But most of the time, I found her point of view is so unique yet astute.
All I can say is that, she is smart.

We were talking about future, internship, education system in NUS vs USA during the dinner.

And we started to discuss how unfair in the education system of NUS, more precisely, NUS Biz School.
In USA, the lecturers are very supportive and encouraging when a student landed on an internship, it doesn't matter that internship is very prestigious kind or is just a normal internship.
But in NUS, the biz career center constantly engrafts the idea that, if you can't get a good internship, you are nothing but a LOSER.
After years of hearing that, it is true that I get worried when I still not having some good internship in my CV.
I remembered last couple of days, I keep applying for internships, not a few but quite a number.

Big banks like DBS, Citibank to smaller IB firms to some other well-established companies.
I questioned myself, is it what I want to do for my future?
The answer is yea, I would like to work in banking industry, not only NUS biz school says banking is the best industry to dive in but also this is one of my strength.

However, will I consider myself a failure if I can't get into any finance industry?

Probably not, I still have my passion for supply chain management, another area that I probably will do better than finance

But, I don't wanna give up finance, finance might not be the best fit for me but I still want to give it a try.

NUS biz school is talking about finance.

It is understandable that Singapore is a finance hub so the school is focusing more on finance.

But I think, they shouldn't shape the picture as in only finance is the best that you should get, people love marketing, love supply chain, love management, just because they can't do well in finance.
What's wrong if I can't get an internship in finance industry?
Nothing wrong, but I feel ashame, like I disappoint my parents, betray my life or something.

I started to think, why would I have such thinking, finance is not the only career that I can pursue, if I am dedicated, I can shine in any area.

My friend was right, she said we have reach the level that we started to think why we are in univ and what I want to do in future.

This statement hits me.

I, in fact, was thinking about what I want in the future recently and how should I achieve that.

And I still thinking, can't decide which one is the best.
I am afraid that if I pick the wrong one, I will be stuck there and find no U-turn.

It reminds me of "The Road Not Taken".

The poem I learnt in secondary school, it starts with "two roads diverged in a yellow wood".
Aptly describe my fear now.